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About Me Member DA Addict BlackMoriahFemale/United States Recent Activity Deviant for 5 Years
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A (fe)male Marine

Thu Dec 20, 2007, 10:13 PM
  • Mood: Shame
Today was good to begin with, and end with. But the middle was kinda iffy. I have a lot of work to do before boot camp, but this was a start, and an eye opener.

I get to the recruiting office and Staff Sergeant is in a bad mood because no one comes to the meetings, And i get in a horrid mood because i feel like i've failed as guide in my attempt to call those who aren't consistant in replying to my e mails or calling their recruiter or wednesdays. But it starts out like any other, we circle up, and well...thats the extent of the normality ...

We had...god i don't even know how many Marines running around, other than recruiters. But everyone, the recruiters and our class instructor all decided that they are going to really bump up the PT and teach like a drill instructor. Aw man, they totally kicked our asses today. I feel like i totally and completely failed because i couldn't do all the push ups, i could hardly do 15 counts (which in sense if 30). And i don't want to use the excuse that i'm female, i'm motivated i should be able to do the 25 counts they want us to. But they kept making us do those push ups and i just couldn't do it...my body just stopped, it gave up on me, i could hardly raise my arms, i have a tension head ache from the back and neck muscles tensing up...I hate failing, i hate it, i need to be able to do this.

We stopped and went on a short formation run only to circle up in a nearby area and do it again. I had one of the Marines telling me i was getting my ass fired from guide, because i couldn't even do the pushups or the mountain climbers. I don't know if i was sweating or crying, but something was dripping down my face. When we ran (sprinted) back to the recruiting station i almost threw up, i gaged but nothing came because i had nothing in my stomach.

God, i totally and completely failed, i've managed not to cry so far, so thats good, but god knows i'm so freakings disappointed in myself. it was like...an EPIC FAIL! *sigh* just goes to show that just because i can pass the PFT doesn't mean I'm ready for boot camp.

And don't anyone dare tell me that you can just not go into the Marines, you can flack. Because even through all the pain and harrassment I never once thought about quitting. My body is just a piece of ass crap right now...but i'll improve.

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  • Current Residence: Oregon
  • Interests: Horses, Singing, Acting, Art, Swimming
  • Favourite movie: 300, Howl's Moving Castle, Save the Last Dance, Moulin Rouge
  • Favourite band or musician: Cloud 9, Scooter,
  • Favourite genre of music: R&B, Rap, Techno/Trance,
  • Favourite artist: Terry - my old private art teacher <3
  • Favourite photographer: the people who take stock photos of horses!
  • Favourite style of art: Airbrushing or colored pencil
  • Operating System: Windows XP Home edition
  • MP3 player of choice: iPod Nano
  • Shell of choice: The ones you find on the beach!
  • Favourite game: Bikini Pool!
  • Favourite gaming platform: Game Cube, Playstation, Computer
  • Favourite cartoon character: Invader Zim
  • Personal Quote: If you dont drown, you win every time
  • Tools of the Trade: Photoshop 7.0, Wacom Tablet 9x12, Paper, Pencil, kneaded eraser

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:iconhcollazo2000:
Awesome gallery. Keep up the good work.
:iconschikaka:
you have a big talent ^^ your gallery is wonderful
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:iconseylin-emily:
O_O YOU HAVE THE MOST AMAZING GALLERY, EVAH! I MUST WATCH YOU< YOUR ART IS SO GOOD!

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:iconjuniperia:
I've seen your shaman picture and decide to walh through all your gallery.. it's great! :gallery:

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:iconfalconfire:
You have one amazing gallery!

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:iconteishou:
...you...have....the most awesome horse gallery ever. <3333333333



I wish I had your mad skills. ;;

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:iconkeekz:
I absolutely :love: your work.
:iconmidniteastoriah:
Loved your gallery, especially the horses, they are beautiful
:iconmoodymand:
thankyou for the watch! :cuddle:
must watch back :D
:iconsouth-wind:
Thank you very much for watching me! :hug: Beautiful gallery! :)

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